Choke.

I feel the water filling my lungs, choking out words that are inaudbile in hope that someone, anyone will hear them. I've lost feeling in every limb, the flow of my blood has frozen in its path. Each limb feeling heavier as time goes on, not being able to get enough strength to keep my head above water. I've burned the bridges that reached the lake that I'm in, in hope that someone would triumph through the troubles to get to me, to save me from this struggle that's getting harder every second. I sputter and choke; choking on hatred, greed, jealousy, heartache and anguish, feelings that I felt every day. I can no longer fight this battle by myself, in need of someone to reach out to me, to take my hand and save me from this life I'm leading. I've lost all hope in finding one to rescue me.

I rarely update anymore, and I feel kind of bad.
I'm going to start again